Before Now

by Tai Shan Music

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released December 31, 2005

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Tai Shan Music Seattle, Washington

Seattle-based pop-folk artist and songwriter Tai Shan is known for her unusual chord voicing, wide sweeping melodies, and detailed lyrics. As a music teacher, performer, composer, and collaborator with a wide variety of jazz, folk, and pop musicians, she has gained a dedicated fan following through performances across the West Coast. ... more

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Track Name: Runaway
It’s a story that you didn’t intent to tell
Heartache you threw like a penny in a wishing well
It’s the moment you stand in front of your grave and say
I can’t run any longer

It was in your stomach and you eat it as a child
You wanted to tame it but it was too damn wild
Fear and insecurity was hung on old clothes racks
Never to come back

And now it haunts you, stares back from your daughter’s eyes
You wanted to tame it but it was too damn wild
You can’t stop it can’t watch it as it suddenly arises
You want desperately to watch it wash away
But time is an ocean
Emotion a wave

Chorus:
We all have our demons running round here inside
Keeps us alive
And it’s so hard to face
But I know you’ll survive
If you runaway from yesterday


Memories drown me as he mentions the word
How can a flame remain when it wouldn’t burn
The sky is falling as the sparrows fly south
And I’m without a doubt

I can still feel the dirt beneath my nails
The smell of midnight
Inside that hotel
I can’t face it so my mind slips away to yesterday

Theirs not a damn thing I can do but fight the tears
Regrets too good a word for all those years
Sometimes I feel as though the sun has gone away
And I’m stuck here in yesterday

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You thought it would fade, rust with time
You forget how long a monster can stay alive
You want the world to just stand still but you can’t run away from yesterday

Chorus
Track Name: Blue Shade of Gray
Down on Mendocino
When the night crawls to fly
When the black bird flutters across a melancholy sky
She comes a calling
Smeared blue with lipstick red
Her high heels may be tapping the minuet turned rag

Chorus
What a blue shade of gray of gray of gray
What she’s loosing the night takes away takes away

A ghost amidst the legend
Her face aged as wine
Her wrinkles tell the story of the
Man that robbed her blind

It true she loved him dearly
But his faded eyes did stray
And when her lips weren’t oh so supple that fool he ran away

Chorus

Her eyes slightly fade
With every street lite night
And every time she opens up
Her beauty pays the price

Yeah She’ll turn her face away
Just to ease the pain
But she knows shes nothing more than just a crying shame

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Track Name: Dog With Wine
Sitting in the sand in the middle of the night
I’m skipping stones by the riverside
And I want you
Like a dog want wine

And suddenly its sexual its
Adam and eve in the garden of the earth and I
Want you, like a dog wants wine

Face hair and hands
Lips and eyes
Skin upon skin
You’re a melting pot in the
Middle of the night

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But you said no attachment
But it’s a little too late for that
So pucker up darling I’m going to steal me a little kiss
I want to love you baby
I ain’t letting go
So come a little closer
Cause I already locked that door
I locked that door

A few more minutes till I see you again
Just one more day and I’m rushing into you babe
And into love
Your James Bond and I’m Tammy Wynette
And we are singing
Stand by your man
But hey babe stand by your woman

I want to go
Swimming in the sheets get lost
In linen and lace
But suddenly you move away and say

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That you want no attachment
But it’s a little too late for that
So pucker up darling I’m going to steal me a little kiss
I want to love you baby
I ain’t letting go
So come a little closer
Cause I already locked that door
I locked that door

I’m drunk on love I must confess
I would never pass a sobriety test
With you babe, I’m like a dog with wine

And now you want to walk out that door
But baby you’ll be back for more
You need me
Like dog needs wine.

Want to kiss me again
Well then give on in
No free samples no it ain’t Costco
And now you say you got to make up your mind.


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Track Name: Cinderella
It’s all an illusion
You’re lost in sensation
Welcome to my wall
I see you watching as I am singing
But you don’t see me at all
You see the girl who plays her pretty songs
You don’t see her as se spends the night alone

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For I am Cinderella
Under a spell
I will only hurt you
As my clock strikes twelve
And you find that I am just like everybody else.


I’m guilty of witchcraft for mystifying
And putting you in this state
You think you want me
But you want the glamour
You can’t differentiate

I’ll take you home and in the
Morning you will see
That I have shed that beauty

Chorus

I let you a sliver a crystal slipper
As my spell dissolved
Don’t track her down boy cause you’ll only find her as I’m singing my songs

Then you will see the beauty you knew
As I sit in the corner and write this song for you
Track Name: Love will Kill you in Time
What am I doing here?
All you ever do is disappear
I’m going to walk out that door
I ain’t coming round here any more

I’ve got a lover that treats me fine but a
Lover is only the lonely let blind
Oh I’ve got a lover but love will kill you in time

I’ve got a lover for security
But lonely is the only thing that he leaves me
Oh I’ve got a lover but love will kill you in time

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Oh I’ve got a lover but wait, I want to live my life
Don’t want to settle down one day I want to live my life
Out in the fast lane, No baggage on this damn
So tell me why I’m still here

Treat me right treat me wrong
As long as you don’t leave me hear alone
I’ve got a lover but love will never have me

Look around obviously theirs a problem with society
If you don’t have a lover than you better not come around

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Oh I’ve got a lover but wait, I want to live my life
Don’t want to settle down one day I want to live my life
Out in the fast lane, No baggage on this damn
So tell me why I’m still here

I’ve got a lover but he don’t love me
And now its up to my creativity
Glue in the pieces where the pieces would never fit

I should leave this fantasy
And walk the plank of reality
I won’t do it, don’t make me do it, no, no

Chorus:
Oh I’ve got a lover but wait, I want to live my life
Don’t want to settle down one day I want to live my life
Out in the fast lane, No baggage on this damn
So tell me why I’m still here
Tell me why
Track Name: Its Your Life
Since I was a kid they told me the American way
They said you have right never to be striped away
Is that the case in modern day?
Tell me

I want to know are you human or a man
Are you a lion or a sacrificial lamb?
Do you feel you have done all that you can?
Tell me

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It’s your life why don’t you lead it
Just one life to live
When it comes down to the question
I don’t want to know what you gave but what you give
In this life will you stand down or will you fight?


I know you have kids job, bills to pay
Forget the line about land of the brave
Tell me how many people did you save
Right now

Courage, and honor and stand up for what you believe
Or is that a little too extreme
Have we changed the meaning of the American dream?
Tell me

Chorus
It’s your life why don’t you lead it
Just one life to live
When it comes down to the question
I don’t want to know what you gave but what you give
In this life will you stand down or will you fight?


Will you protect what others have died for?
Someday your children will wonder
Did daddy do all that he could for me?

Or will you leave duties in someone else’s hands
They will fix it I’ve done all that I can
You live your life in shame if you can stand it

Chorus:
It’s your life why don’t you lead it
Just one life to live
When it comes down to the question
I don’t want to know what you gave but what you give
In this life will you stand down or will you fight?
Come on and fight
Track Name: Day By Day
I want to love you baby
I want to treat you right
Just look to me for security
I’ll always treat you right
Dance with me here in the kitchen
Till you can’t stop blushing at me

When embarrassment strikes
Give up the fight let go and you will see

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Day by Day
I’m going to get you some way
Day by Day
I’m going to get you some way

I want to be the angel
To watch over while you sleep
When nightmares come hey I’ll be the one to help you count your sheep

Let me be the moment
A smile dances on your lips
Or maybe if I could be the breath
After every bright eyed kiss

Chorus

Let me be the dewdrop
That wrinkles your nose tonight
Or at least let me be that pestering breeze that blows your hair just right


Stroll with me by the ocean
Lay with me in the grass
Take up my time till it’s yours and its mine
Like sand in an hourglass

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